HELLO MY NAME IS _____

photo by Connor Walk

photo by Connor Walk

     So, six hours ago my plan for this post went like this - upload photos from yesterday (Valentines Day), edit photos, upload to blog, write about outfit, post. Done. Fast forward to now and about half of that I still plan on doing. 
     I was in the middle of editing when something hit me, and to be quite honest really pissed me off. I kept getting frustrated because no matter how many filters I slapped on my photos I still was not happy with the way I looked. Not only was I questioning my outfit and my hair but also things about myself I can't change. Things I have no control over like my face shape, how my upper lip is small, and countless other things. And as I'm sitting here I ask myself how I got to this point? 
     These thoughts have been rushing in in increasing numbers for about seven months now and last time I checked I remember being this carefree, outgoing, and sometimes (always) slightly obnoxious teenager. I always considered myself to be someone who had a decent amount of confidence and for the most part never really cared about what others thought of me. Now being in my twenties I feel like it's so easy to get stuck in the mindset of 'everyone's doing it (life) better than you are'. Where and when was the formula for the perfect life handed out and who is the ass hole that skipped me in line. Now, I am aware that no one is 'perfect' but something about myself has drastically changed and to be frank I'm not sure how I'm going to get through it or even begin to understand it. But I will get through it. 
     The reason I started blogging was because it has always been something I've loved doing. I love photography, graphic design, fashion, networking, and all the other things that come with the territory of being online, BUT I don't thing that criticizing myself to this extent is something I should have to deal with in order to do those things. So, in believing that everything happens for a reason I think I need this blog to reintroduce myself to me. Think of it as an investment.
     So let's start over. Hey, I'm Sarah Vessell. I'm 22 years old and I'm still so young. I'm still learning, growing, and making mistakes, but everyday I have the opportunity to better myself. And yeah, some days will be worse than others and that's okay. I hope that this post can at least help one person who may be dealing with the same things that I am and that you (whoever you are) will know that you aren't alone. I know there still may be so much we don't understand about ourselves, but the struggle is all apart of this beautiful journey.

KL

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